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December 10, 2005

Day two

Well, this is my second day on Wellbutrin and I have to say I don't really see a difference. So anyway.

I took Zeke down to the park this morning. And it was full of crazy hummingbirds. They were swooping and yelling at Zeke as he walked past. It was funny.

There are kitties in the park, too. They live there. Zeke sniffs around the bushes where they sleep, and they see him and they get all puffy.

You know, I really like kitties. They're fuzzy. I wish I could have a kitty.

Squirrels are fuzzy too, and there was this one squirrel who came down the tree trunk to just above Zeke's head, and Zeke didn't even notice!! OMGLOL!!

Trees are our friends, you know.

Trees are cool.

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Posted by: Space Kitty at December 10, 2005 10:59 AM
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OMGWTFBBQ!!11!

Posted by: John at December 10, 2005 11:08 AM
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Sw33T! Will u friend me?

Posted by: Amanda Marcotte at December 10, 2005 11:10 AM
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ASL PLZ

Posted by: Hank Fox at December 10, 2005 11:18 AM
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=v= Sounds like the grizzly threat has been replaced with trees. Better living through chemistry, yay!

Posted by: Jym Dyer at December 10, 2005 11:32 AM
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God! Finally! What an improvement!

Posted by: beth at December 10, 2005 11:49 AM
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OMG!! LOL!! U R 2 KEWL!! DRGS R AWSM!

Seriously, glad they're working.

Posted by: Dr. Virago of Quod She at December 10, 2005 12:01 PM
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Give it about a week.

Posted by: Decklin Foster at December 10, 2005 12:57 PM
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Heretofore I have usually seen irony applied with a 00 brush. Watching it laid on with a spackling trowel is new, but interesting.

Posted by: Mrs Tilton at December 10, 2005 04:44 PM
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\/\/3LLBUTR1N OWNZ0RZ JOO! ROFLCOPTER!!!1

(link goes to a flash site; here there be Loggins)

Posted by: the_bone at December 10, 2005 05:01 PM
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HA HA HA HA HA! Puffy. Funny.

Sarcasm is a sign of not having lost your edge, right? :)

Posted by: Sara at December 10, 2005 05:57 PM
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Sarcasm?

Posted by: Chris Clarke at December 10, 2005 05:58 PM
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Perhaps I'm too easily amused. I keep coming back to re-read this, and I laugh out loud every time. Thanks.

Posted by: jg at December 10, 2005 07:19 PM
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I keep coming back to re-read this, and I laugh out loud every time. Thanks.

The "OMGLOL" gets me every time.

Posted by: eRobin at December 10, 2005 07:32 PM
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You won't notice anything from the Wellbutrin for a couple of weeks, it takes a while for it to make a real difference.

Posted by: Kevin at December 10, 2005 08:03 PM
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I think you're experiencing the miracle of the placebo effect. The stuff is supposed to take a week or two before you notice anything.
First thing I noticed was the seizures. They were kind of fascinating.

(Not that I'm saying you'll have seizures, don't get paranoid.)

(Not that I'm saying that if you get paranoid it will make you have seizures - its not acid, its not like you can have a bad trip.)

(but then... are there placebo effect seizures?)

(oh never mind. I'm tired.)

(sorry for the stream-of-unconsciousness typing)

Posted by: craig at December 10, 2005 08:10 PM
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Roffle House!

Posted by: amandyman at December 10, 2005 09:32 PM
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h4h4h4h4h4 r0x0rz

l33t h4x0rz 4E!

But seriously the ROFLCOPTER is killing me.

Posted by: Allison at December 10, 2005 10:28 PM
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If you want a kitty, you should get a kitty.

Hey, why am I the only person taking this post seriously?

Posted by: SneakySnu at December 11, 2005 06:49 AM
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the OMGLOL is pretty good! but seriously, give it some time.

and [assuming you were taking the tested path of not lying too much in your writing] -- get a kitten. kittens don't bother older dogs, usually, if they are gently introduced. we foster kittens for a rescue organization, and our babies spend time with our dogs, so they'll be comfortable in multi-species households.

Posted by: kathy a at December 11, 2005 04:31 PM
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Hi Chris, I hope you're doing okay with your shiny new pillz! I've been taking bupropion for depression for several years now. Here's what I can tell you that might be helpful: the side effects happen well before you experience the full therapeutic effect (which kicks in gradually over the first month or so), but if you stick with it, the side-effects (feeling like you just hoovered a fat line or two) pretty much go away after a couple of months. I'm sad to say that bupropion didn't make me skinny, but it did help with libido, and has pretty much been an excellent anti-depressant. I don't know much about ADD, but I do know that impaired memory and concentration were major symptoms of my depression, and so I've seen great improvement in those areas. As for your concerns (stated in the post below) about creativity and your writing, I can only tell you that everything that actually sucks will continue to suck after you have all these extra neurotransmitters laying around. I was afraid of taking "happy pills" for a long, long time, but my depression became so severe that I didn't really have a choice in the end. I'm pleased to report that antidepressants do not, in fact, make one happy. Merely able to get out of bed on a more-or-less regular basis.

Best of luck to you!

Posted by: res publica at December 11, 2005 04:36 PM
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Zeke would be thrilled with a cat of any age. He has kitty friends throughout the neighborhood: the ones that are either too clever or too stupid to run from him.

It's Becky that's keeping me from having a cat. She's horribly allergic. However, live with Becky and without a cat is far preferable to live with a cat and without Becky, so I'll manage.

Posted by: Chris Clarke at December 11, 2005 04:37 PM
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What about a ferret? Sort of dog-like and cat-like all around. And slinky, too. And mischievous enough to really do some numbers on your drug-induced hallucinations...

Posted by: Miguel Arboleda at December 11, 2005 04:45 PM
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No more pets for us, for a while. We need to be pet-free for a few years.

Posted by: Chris Clarke at December 11, 2005 05:21 PM
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And here I was, all ready to go off on a hypochondriac tangent, with the paramedics standing by and my friend with a shot of epinephrine to jam through your breastbone if needed...but here you are, happily reminiscing about kitties! lol Well, glad to know that everything is going fine!

Posted by: TMJ at December 12, 2005 09:15 AM
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Kitties!

and...

LOL!

;)

Posted by: Rana at December 12, 2005 11:38 AM
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Yay for you! I second the opinion that the side effects will go away after a while, and that it will be worth putting up with them for the time being. I took Wellbutrin on and off - which I don't recommend - for years, and thought that it was a good thing. I hope that it is a good thing for you too.

Posted by: Kim at December 12, 2005 12:02 PM
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I second res publica's remarks, but do refer you to an essay on this subject in the "Unholy Ghost" collection by poet Chase Twitchell. Twitchell found her ability to write poetry altered by anti-depressants. She didn't stop taking them; she needed them, as do many of us, at least for a time. And she continues to write poetry. But any writer must attend to what is lost as well as what is found.

Posted by: Kit Stolz at December 13, 2005 02:20 PM
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I'm coming in late with my comment, but sincere. I take wellbutrin (along with several other antidepressants) and I write (poetry, prose, babble - it's a compusion), so I'm going to vouchsafe an opinion or two.

All of the various meds for this sort of thing take a while to get working - between a week and a month, usually. Aeons, I know. Meanwhile the side effects have no such reticence.

I'm a little surprised they have you on wellbutrin as a norepinepherine mediator - most of the time it is given as a serotonin reuptake inhibitor. On the other hand, this class of drugs is one that works without people knowing exactly why. I am unfamiliar with how it works for ADHD people, whose biochemisty (as I'm sure you know) results in a number of drugs having different effects than on the main population. Effexor and Cymbalta are the meds I've been on as norepinepherine (as well as serotonin) mediators.

I can write prose fairly deep into a depressive episode, but I only seem to be able (or desirous) of writing poetry when I'm essentially mentally in balance - actually that is one of the things I use to try and tell if I'm in an episode or one is coming on.

I've been on meds and in therapy for the better part of 20 years now - feel free to get in touch with me if you want to chat or have questions about long-term use of medication as a treatment. I went to meds reluctantly, but have found them helpful (so I am not a blind cheerleader for them, in other words, if you do want to discuss).

Posted by: Joy at December 15, 2005 06:46 AM
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